Off the Deep End

These are the aimless thoughts of a hungry little alien who's actually old enough to get a job and get marrried. The writer's a little bit off the deep end, or so to speak. Anyway, she thinks she's an alien and she's just been sent to Earth to research on the mysteries of human behavior. She loves ice cream and chicken curry. (Of course, she puts them on separate dishes. Otherwise, hell's bells shall toll.)

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

The true black...

Sometimes, I lie awake, staring at the ceiling in the heavy darkness of my room. Afraid. Quite. Somehow, I'm still trying to grasp the meaning of the darkness. Not just the literal aspect, but the hidden truths... Am I making sense? I feel as if the fingers of the lurking shadows are creeping towards me, seeping into my very core, and reading my thoughts and everything I have established about myself and making it one with themselves. Am I one with the darkness now? Have I succumbed to its beauty and pain? Maybe I can smile about it now... Even if I have succumbed, doesn't mean I have to endure the pain that darkness brings. I can only see its beauty... and love the dark. I am no longer afraid. Perhaps... as the days passed... I understood it... and made it part of me.

How lovely thy song sweetly wafting
in my slumbering ear I hear'st...
Softly...
Gently...
Thou takest me
into the realm of the night's revelry.

Friday, August 19, 2005

An Angel in our midst...

My story is about an Angel of Death who wished to become mortal, just so he can understand what it's like to feel all the emotions we do. He got his wish with a wierd twist.His wish took a human form... it's like your subconscious just became a living, breathing mass of evil flesh who was his exact opposite. This guy wanted to destroy and kill and most of the emotions he has are so violent, it has an aftertaste. Now the guy who wished for it to happen, but just didn't expect it to be this dangerous, asked the most sinister wish-granter, Lucifer, to take everything back. But Lucifer was naughty, and kept on playing with this angel's mind. I wonder what will happen next. Will he finally get is wish undone? Or will Lucifer make him suffer a little more than he should?

Come to my arms, Death...
and take from me my breath...
It's just like you have told me, my beloved...
"Life's not roses in your bed."

Thursday, August 18, 2005

Gah! My life is a mess!!!

I don't know what to write in here... I am so-ooo damn bored with my life, I just keep on ranting nonsense in here... anyway, I'm currently working on an independent comic entitled "Mal'akh's Tale." It's a gothic story that's not even scary. It's not light-colored since everyone else is wearing black there. Hope someone likes to buy it when I finally unleash it to the public.

My heart is filled with darkness...
Call me into your embrace.
The wind is blowing in my mind
help me to get away...

Thursday, August 11, 2005

Sleepover in the cow's barn...

Were having a sleepover tomorrow night. I wonder what I should bring... My Cow asked everyone else to sleep over with us. (Note: Cow is not a real cow. It's just that we call each other some sort of animal.) Anyway, it's not the first time I slept over, so I guess, I'll bring the stuff I usually take with me... I wonder how many of us are gonna go...

The house is full, my dear...
No place for you but the barn...
But if you close your eyes and think
of good things and dreams...
the haystack will be as soft as eiderdown
'neath your head...

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

Say sorry with all your soul...

I went home last night to a barrage of apologies. One was mellowed and one still didn't understand the true meaning of the word sorry. Still, I'm a patient little alien and I tend to give second chances to people. It's not exactly a first offense for one, but like I said, I am a patient alien. Though I know that greater apology is due, when I have eaten the kast bit of the bitter bread, I will never again be communicating with that person. I can still tolerate it, so I'll still be hanging around on Earth to see what happens next. Anticipatory, but then, necessary. Maybe we should let go of our pasts and all our hang-ups and just say sorry with all our souls... I know it's difficult, but when the person you offended sees the sincerity in your eyes, even though forgiveness will take a long time to be solid, it will be worth the wait. The one who shall forgive the other will learn how to truly smile again.

Forgiveness is a fragile thing...
So give all your soul
in a sincere apology
and watch forgiveness bloom...
Sorry can cushion your fall
with an equally pained soul.

Monday, August 08, 2005

The meaning of sweetness...

How many times have I actually eaten chocolate and experienced excruciating toothaches? I cannot count the times... anyway, I've just watched Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. It's the best movie I've watched so far. And I was eating some chocolate and milk-filled marshmallows just so I won't feel so left out by the characters in the movie. I kinda sympathize with Mr. Willie Wonka. Anyway, I had so much fun today, but I still wish I could go to his factory and eat some of the grass. (Mmm... yummy!!!) Reminds me of my headquarters. I've got to trim the lawn. I do mean, my lawn badly needs a makeover. It's a total mess. Well, I do like living in the wild, but this is absolutely ridiculous! Ciao for now. Still gotta finish my mini chocolate bars.

Sweet, my heart beats
like a fluttering feather down
into a river of heavenly milk...
in a pattern of the universe...

Thursday, August 04, 2005

One bored alien plus a wide floor equals...

I'm rolling on the floor... completely bored... I wanna do something... eat... dance... go to the arcade and play til I drop. I'm bored, bored, bored... I'm so bored... I'm rolling on the floor... completely bored... and unless you do something to make me stop ranting about boredom, I'll keep repeating myself until something else comes to mind. Hey! I can go watch something... Ah, wait... I just did that... I think I'll just shut my mind down for a while. This blog is inconsistent due to the fact that it's not my pc I'm using. I don't have one. I don't have a built in computer in me even though I am an alien. Although sometimes I wish I did... Well, see ya fortnight, whoever is reading this blog and wasting their time on reading absolute nonsense.


Ye gods and goblins!
Why dost thou give me no rest?
The silence of the mind
that I crave...
is but a trivial thing
to be blessed with...